Not Good Enough
I want to take a minute and get deep down and dirty with you.
I need you to know that I battle with perfection (among other things) and that due to my battle with perfection, I am the biggest procrastinator. Because if I can’t do something “right” or “perfect” the first time, I tend to let it wait . . . and wait . . . and then wait some more. I try to think that God has a sense of humor because He made me this way but some days it isn’t nearly as funny as I’d like to make myself believe.
At 41 years old, you’d think I would have a handle on this at least a little. Well I do, sometimes, but not before I usually fall into some sort of funk and then the “I’m not good enough” voice starts to rear it’s ugly head. Does this happen to you too? Does that voice make you slightly crazy as it seems to get a little bit louder the more you continue to listen to it? I know mine does. Sigh . . .
And if you dwell too long then you might feel lonely or alone in your despair. Or you might end up believing that you aren’t worthy of anything good in your life. Or, you might even feel like you are barren and won’t ever produce any fruit in your life. And then, to top everything else off, you might even begin to feel beat to hell . . . literally.
How do I know this? How could I possibly understand? Because my sweet friend, I have been there. Sometimes for many days, or months, at a time.
But no more.
There is hope though, as of right now. And because there is hope for me, I know that there is hope for you, that is, if you too are in need of some truth that perfection isn’t required and good enough will do just fine. Don’t let the little voice convince you that good enough isn’t okay, IT IS! Because we don’t have to be perfect. There is ONLY one perfect person and He now sits at the right hand of the Father.
But back to hope.
A Sunday morning not so long ago my pastor gave some verses to remind me that we ARE good enough and more because of Jesus Christ. And it was sooooo good for my heart to hear that I just had to share it with you.
So when you are feeling lonely I want to to remember this: “. . . I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” Matthew 28:20. Rejoice friend! You don’t have to feel like this anymore because Jesus just said that He will be with us ALWAYS. Not sometimes. Not when it was convenient. Not when He had time. ALWAYS.
When you are feeling alone, which is totally different than feeling lonely. I have often felt alone in a room full of people. So when you feel alone, I want you to remember this: “I will not leave you orphans; I will come to you.” John 14:18. Again, this is so exciting! Because Jesus tells us again that He will never leave us alone, He will always come for us. And I believe that means especially on our darkest days.
On those days when you feel unworthy, there is yet more good news for you, please remember this: “Look at the birds of the air they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your Heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value then they?” Matthew 6:26. Yes! We are absolutely more important and worthy of all of the good things in life that Christ has for us; we are much more precious and hold more value than that of the birds of the air in God’s eyes.
Have you ever felt barren or unfruitful? So dried up that you couldn’t imagine being productive? Oh my, I know I have. We can be so thankful though that there is a God that loves us so much that He sent Jesus to us and Jesus said this: “You did not choose me but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father, in My name He may give you.” John 15:16. Go read that again. That whatever we ask in His name, Jesus’ name, God may give it to us. Amazing. He doesn’t want us to be unfruitful or barren. We wants us to survive and be prosperous!
And those days when hell has felt like it was right at your doorstep all day, know that you can withstand far more than you think. Remember these verses: “We are hard-pressed on every side, yet NOT crushed; we are perplexed, but NOT in despair; persecuted but NOT forsaken; struck down but NOT destroyed -” 2 Corinthians 4:8-9. (emphasis mine) What an encouraging set of verses that Paul shared with us. No matter what life throws at us, we are strong and steady in Christ. Hold on sweet friend, just hold on.
When the moment strikes next and any of these lies begin to show up, grab your Bible and go read these verses again.
You are worthy! You are NEVER alone! You are stronger than you think! You are MORE than Enough!
I hope that you are blessed and please feel free to email me if you need prayer for anything. I am also happy to pray with you.
In His Grace
Callie
Thank you!